I've been journalling again - not often, but now and then, and it feels very good. In fact I feel stupid for forgetting how much it meant to me, but the last 9 months have been quite a journey.
So here we are, Himself is well and all tests clear, which is nothing less than wonderful. Its taken this long to realise that now we can stop holding our breath and actually make plans for a future we weren't sure we'd have. But the reality is that I find myself in a new town, knowing just two people, and needing to put myself out there and make friends. That's how I was feeling when I made this page.
As you can see, nothing very complicated for my first page in months - just pink acrylic paint with some orange splodged over it and a bit of collage. It actually stayed this way for a few days ....
Then I picked up a pen and a bit more collage (remember I was rusty from lack of practice). I've always loved this little girl image, she reminds me not only of myself but our youngest daughter. The words awkward and difficult come to mind .... and here it represents me feeling like I don't know how to begin.
I didn't add a lot more except the words I wanted to say. Once I would have doodled all over the place and filled the page, but on this first foray back into journalling it felt finished at this point.
And I DID do something to move on - I went to a Pain Support Group and was made very welcome. Its a beginning.
So here we are, Himself is well and all tests clear, which is nothing less than wonderful. Its taken this long to realise that now we can stop holding our breath and actually make plans for a future we weren't sure we'd have. But the reality is that I find myself in a new town, knowing just two people, and needing to put myself out there and make friends. That's how I was feeling when I made this page.
As you can see, nothing very complicated for my first page in months - just pink acrylic paint with some orange splodged over it and a bit of collage. It actually stayed this way for a few days ....
Then I picked up a pen and a bit more collage (remember I was rusty from lack of practice). I've always loved this little girl image, she reminds me not only of myself but our youngest daughter. The words awkward and difficult come to mind .... and here it represents me feeling like I don't know how to begin.
I didn't add a lot more except the words I wanted to say. Once I would have doodled all over the place and filled the page, but on this first foray back into journalling it felt finished at this point.
And I DID do something to move on - I went to a Pain Support Group and was made very welcome. Its a beginning.
4 comments:
Happy to see you back. Earlier this week I checked your site in case Bloglovin had messed up. I just love this posting and you always express yourself in art and words so very well.
Great to see you in my Feedly reader! I was afraid the lure of dolls's houses had torn you away forever ... And a thoughtful page to share. I like the sense of open space in it. Perhaps that's how it feels in this new place, even if it's not comfortable or even a bit lonely? Glad to read you have met some kindred journey(wo)men.
so glad you are back - and even better news about himself. I love your posts and your artwork is extremely inspirational.
Glad to see you're back, rusty or not, I love your pages!
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