Friday, 14 January 2011

OMIGOODNESS ITS ... WELL, SCARY REALLY!

I can now reveal the secret I've had to keep since before Christmas ... which is that we are moving north, back home in fact in March. Any of you in the Preston area please make yourself known because that's where I'll be and will be needing all the new (and old) friends I can get! Which is where the scary part comes in. When we moved here I was at a crossroads in my life and worked hard to make friends and get involved in activities which would fill the void my job used to occupy ... and I've come to have a host of crafty friends, run a scrapbook crop and card classes etc etc, but now have to leave them all.

So, while I'm excited about the future, a large part of me is very scared ... and that's what this journal page is all about. What did I do for therapy before this - just worked things out round and round in my head I suppose.
So as you can see, on a background of scrapbook paper (I love this texture from Basic Gray) I added a border at the bottom and the word "different", before getting down on paper the basic statement uppermost in my mind ... which is that change is scaring me!
Then I added a scary person (probably me, my friends tell me I do scare people) but the main thing is that I tried to counter my fear with my usual method ... which is look at it square on and face up to it. Nearly every time you find that what you're scared of is not so big or bad as you've been imagining, and sometimes we are just resisting change because we're comfortable! That little arch picture is supposed to be a house, and represent my feelings about home, and as you can see below I added a few more housey images (stamps from Invoke) because I was thinking about old home/new home.
And to finish the job off I added some more journalling in the spaces left over and admitted to the questions which keep me awake at night, and it does work! Once you are able to look at your fears square on it does become easier to deal with them, it really does! Not for nothing am I a member of the Brave Girls Club - courage to me means not so much as absence of fear as a willingness to embrace my fear and do it anyway!!

10 comments:

Wipso said...

Good luck with the move. I'm sure it wont be half as scarey as you think.
A x

♪♫♥ Charity Crafter ♪♫♥ said...

Hi x fear is natural x but good friends will always be there for you x Think this journal is a brilliant idea! x good luck with your move and let us know how you get on x Leigh x

*jean* said...

0 best wishes, rosie...journals are a great way to deal with anything, in my humble opinion...i like your page!

Doone said...

alot of people who lack confidence or self esteem describe well adjusted confident, assertive people as 'scary' (especially if the person is a female) it is usually more about them than the person they are describing....

I cannot believe you really do or say things that would scare people. I expect you offer a constructive prod and observation....maybe you know when to challenge yourself and others?

i can believe the change you face is right now frightening to you.

Remember it is an opportunity to do things differently, and it is okay to use the chance you have to set new goals, One of my personal philosophies, if I make a physical, spiritual or psychological change, is that in my 'new place' there will not be room for everything to come along with me, I choose to leave things behind (good stuff) it makes space for even better things not yet known to me -

Never get too comfortable for too long hun - you might stop growing and start shrinking.

Ophelia said...

I LOVE your page! Such a great post...such a beautiful page!

Anesha said...

Good luck with your move. I love to see how your page progress, it wonderful. Thanks for sharing.

alexa said...

I am always touched how you share so much of yourself on your pages, and let us see the process. I am always inspired. :) Am not as far north as Preston, but hoping you will settle in and find a whole new and interesting world on your doorstep ...

JaneH said...

Best wishes on your move, Rosie. I bet it will be better than you fear.

Theresa said...

Loving this post too Rosie...wish I knew where Preston was...it's obvious you're a very special person with so much to offer friends - new and old. Best of luck on your new adventure!

Valerie said...

I happened upon your blog today Rosie an was so excited to see your work and to know that you are A Brave Girl...I am so sad the class is over but look forward to number 2 in June. I totally love everything you create and will be following you daily...I am just now delving into the misting paints and the work you have done with them makes me want to run out right now and get some...thanks for your wonderful blog and for the inspiration...