Saturday 27 October 2018

DARK CLOUDS ....

I wasn't going to publish this page, out of a wish not to depress people who might be experiencing their own dark clouds.  However, when I thought it through it came to me that feelings like these are just part of life, and everyone has them from time to time.  What matters is only that we do find a way, and we CAN carry on ....

The weather at the time was dark and miserable, and my mood does fluctuate with the light.  It wasn't my original intention to make any kind of gloomy page - I just like purple!  So I splodged down some lilac paint, and began to collage over it.
Then I began drawing, making "connections" between the elements on the page, as well as adding outlines and shadows.  Joining things up does matter to me, because I do believe that nothing and nobody exists other than in relationship to someone or something ... and its a source of constant amazement and joy to me to discover unexpected connections.  God sees all the pieces of the puzzle and knows what she's doing.
I got to the stage below (photographed later in the day when the light wasn't very good) and then got completely STUCK.  I'd left this space in the middle to write in but had no idea what words belonged there.
So I set the page aside and worked on other things.  Then one morning I limped into the studio ... and there was the journal open at this page.  I literally sat down and immediately, without thinking about it, wrote these words.
But (as my granny used to say) "better out than in".   I learned painfully a long time ago that bottling up negative feelings is really REALLY bad for you, so I don't.  The journals have always been a way to look into my soul and find out what's going on in there that I won't always admit, even to myself.

Even the act of writing the words down helped to lift my spirits and I am pleased to report that my present mood is one of unrelieved optimism, but then again the sun is currently shining ...

4 comments:

Revel1979 said...

I so admire all of your work. You are so talented regardless of the type of day you are having...your pages are so full of colour and life! Thank you so much for sharing. You capture so many of my feelings dealing with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue! I hope to journal like that one day as well. Greetings from Canada....

Elizabeth said...

I really enjoy your work. I wish you could teach classes & I could join!

Rosie said...

I wish I could too Elizabeth! I used to love teaching, but don't think I have the energy now. Revel thank you for your greetings from Canada - I have family there.

Cath Wilson said...

Unfortunately, I think we all have those, but I also know it's a symptom of your condition - sorry if that sounds awful or patronising - not meant to be. I genuinely do sympathise.

Gorgeous work.

Cath x